Citizens' Voice SeriesI've been asked to write about my country. The truth is I’m Spanish by law, but for some time I haven’t been feeling like that, but rather linked to a small country that does not exist as a state yet: Catalonia. It’s strange because, although it does not exist, there’s a National Theater, a National Library and many other national things. My colleagues from Madrid always make fun of this. I guess it is funny somehow.
Sandra MoncusíSinger and Saxofonist
I was lucky to study in a Catalan school, the ‘Isabel de Villena,’ which gave me a very unusual point of view, very critical and, paradoxically, very tolerant with "the enemy." My tolerance and love for Spain grew as a result of living abroad and dealing with people from many different places. I had never considered Catalan independence, much less in these times of globalization. I did not understand the concept of border, and I foolishly believed that our country could belong to everyone, shared with respect of course, like when I was around the UK.
But as I've grown I've seen the pain inflicted from outside to my own language and traditions. How the media and the Spanish state violate our right to speak our language, how they push us economically, making fun of us, all in order to gain some votes. Shameful! All this has lately raised a feeling inside me I’ve never had before, a sense of struggle, of strength, of belonging to a group. I've had enough of everything already! And by this I’m not saying that everything that happens in my country seems wonderful to me. I have some reviews and bad feelings about some things that happen in Catalonia, things that often make me feel bad about belonging to the land I love.
I guess if I had to vote in a referendum, I would vote for the independence of my country, my home. In fact, I did so in a brave simulation that took place there. The thing is, Spain still seems a beautiful place to me, but more hostile every day, to which I am not allowed to belong anymore, just because I have my own identifying signals, from my home, for which I feel proud. What I do not understand is that Spain doesn’t want us, but it won’t let us go either.
Singer and Saxofonist
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